what i’m reading: spring 2017

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  Happy Spring, everyone! Here in Texas, the bluebonnets are lining all the highways, and we are basking in or two weeks of perfect weather before the onslaught of endless heat hits us. A couple of weeks ago, a friend of mine made the mistake of asking me what I’m reading. I think I overwhelmed him a teensy bit with my twenty minute long answer. In my defense, I was given a gift card to…

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oy with the poodles already

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Last weekend, I was having an all-too-frequent moment of insecurity. I’m not sure there’s a way to avoid these here on earth, as long as we’re clothed in this fading flesh of ours. Everyone I know is afraid they may not be enough now and then. Gosh, we’re a neurotically flawed bunch. I try not to wallow, though. As Lorelei would say: Oy with the poodles already. Oy with the poodles already is Gilmore Girls talk…

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first love and big trophies

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  “I see what you’ve done, your hard, hard work, your refusal to quit. I know you can’t stomach evil, that you weed out apostolic pretenders. I know your persistence, your courage in my cause, that you never wear out. But you walked away from your first love—why? What’s going on with you, anyway?….Listen. Listen to the Wind Words, the Spirit blowing through the churches. I’m about to call each conqueror to dinner. I’m spreading…

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how to get some happy in your life

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Raising kids is a roller coaster of emotionally epic proportions. It’s happy. It’s exciting. It’s terrifying. It leaves you screaming, crying, and coming back for more. It makes us all so tired and ready to lie down. Today my second boy is turning twelve. I really didn’t expect this unusual feat of miraculous aging when I first held him in my arms over a decade ago. I mean, I knew he would get older, of…

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on being a revolutionary ordinary woman

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We were hurrying out the door to meet my friend, Gina, so she could do me a HUUUGE favor and take some photos for me, and one of my boys lobbed this doozy at me: “When are we going to take down the Christmas lights on the house? I mean… it’s February.” What??? The lights are still up? I had forgotten. I hadn’t noticed. I had subconsciously deleted the task from my to-do list. I…

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middle-aged mom life is a real thing

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When I imagined myself as a mom, it was always as a young mom of very small children. It is a pure shock to me that that stage has ended in many ways for me. I can’t really explain my utter lack of reality, except to say I like babies and wish my kids could be Peter Pan. However, my oldest will be a TEENAGER on Saturday, and I feel like Alice when she went…

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the bittersweet road home

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Meanwhile the disciples were urging him, saying, “Rabbi, eat.”  But he said to them, “I have food to eat that you do not know about.”  So the disciples said to one another, “Has anyone brought him something to eat?” Jesus said to them, “My food is to do the will of him who sent me and to accomplish his work.” -John 4:31-34 I sat in the car watching the scenery of the southwest speed by…

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all the favorites: books & posts from 2016

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I really don’t know where this year has gone. I had high expectations for 2016 to be something special, because I was turning forty (why are new decades such a WEIRD THING, by the way??) and 2016 was the year Morgan and I would celebrate 15 years of marriage (which seems like a lot to everyone except the people who have been married for any number of years over sixteen). I was very “Audrey Hepburn…

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god bless the christmas mamas, every one

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Around here, Christmas looks something like this: It’s Christmas lights and long lines and photo cards and apple cider and a last minute this and a beautiful that and it is all going too quickly. We play cards and dominoes, Sorry and twenty questions, and we eat too much chocolate and laugh too loud, we stay up too late and the kids are too excited to sleep in and it’s the only Christmas these beautiful faces…

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someday at christmas: a post for my church family

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“Someday all our dreams will come to be Someday in a world where men are free Maybe not in time for you and me But someday at Christmas time Someday at Christmas man will not fail Hate will be gone and love will prevail Someday a new world that we can start With hope in every heart.” -Stevie Wonder This Christmas has me feeling a kindredness to Ruth and Naomi. As we walk through this…

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