wonder woman & jesus & all of us

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Last week I sat in a quintessentially Austin burrito place with two of my friends and I told them about the movie Wonder Woman. “I cried when she fought her way across no man’s land. All I could think was, ‘I want to be that!!’” I said. “I read about this,” my friend said. “It’s happening to women all over the nation!” And she was right. There have been articles in the LA Times, USA…

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the bittersweet road home

By | change, choosing, courage, devotional, failure, God, home, spiritual disciplines, Suffering | No Comments

Meanwhile the disciples were urging him, saying, “Rabbi, eat.”  But he said to them, “I have food to eat that you do not know about.”  So the disciples said to one another, “Has anyone brought him something to eat?” Jesus said to them, “My food is to do the will of him who sent me and to accomplish his work.” -John 4:31-34 I sat in the car watching the scenery of the southwest speed by…

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an advent prayer for the weary parent’s heart

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Morgan and I always seem to have these deep parenting talks in the dark of bedtime, when the day is over and dishes are done and we can rest at last. The conversation always begins the same way:“I’m not sure the kids are doing so great right now…”The sun has gone to bed, but my heart can’t rest after the long day of raising big kids. This weariness is different than the exhaustion of tending to…

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re: all the things and the Sunday I preached in church

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“For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the…

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how to hold onto your (used to be) babies

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I was just sitting at the kitchen table yesterday, minding my own business, when a singular revelation hit me like a lightning bolt. I haven’t seen that green blanket in months. You know, the one my child couldn’t live without for the first decade of his life? The comfort he demanded as a toddler. The one he held close to his face while he guzzled a sippy cup of chocolate milk. It is the blanket…

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old enough

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I promise it’s true: the older we get, the younger we feel. Which is ridiculous, because we remember middle school like it was yesterday, when we thought thirty was old, forty was ancient, fifty was incomprehensible, and sixty year-olds probably need to just take a nap all the time. Our plan was to be forever young. Growing old seemed about as likely as being abducted by aliens or mastering the moonwalk back then. And yet, time itself just kept ticking…

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for lent: still fighting

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from I am up long before dawn, coffee by my side, heart churning with the day ahead. Then I check Facebook and this meme with Exodus 14:14 pops up on my feed. It stuns me once again, the way the word of God is sharp and living. I am breathless and broken as it pierces my heart and weighs more within my mind than twelve words should weigh. Because it’s Lent and we Christian…

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when silence thunders of God’s love

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art by Jen Renninger We stand on the edge of a cliff. Can’t you feel it? The wind swirls around us, water from crashing waves occasionally sprays our faces, and even though we know a deafening roar rises from below us, the silence overrides it.It’s so very quiet on the edge of God’s newness.The truth of our souls lies beneath the water. God wrought caves there. They hold mysterious corridors and the answers to our…

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the lesson in loving the brave son

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Some children are more complicated to raise. It’s just true. There isn’t less love or less grace or more rules or more grace or any difference in the environment around here. The only variables are the sensitivity and temperaments of the children we cherish and tend, and our own strengths and limitations as parents. The tough cases can make a mama lose hope and feel just a smidge like a failure, though. When one of…

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when we wake we will move mountains

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I bought this sign at the HEB grocery store down the road. I have seen the words on Pinterest and Etsy. Apparently, people put this in their baby’s nurseries. But I bought it just for myself, because of the way Mr. Fantastic refers to me as a “late bloomer”. Although I was 5’7 in the sixth grade, he’s right about me. It takes me some time to get to full speed. I’m not alone. There’s nothing…

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