my election night prayer

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It’s election night and even though it feels like life as we know it is about to end no matter which candidate wins, I keep telling myself that it’s going to be okay. It just may not feel like it’s okay tomorrow. But, eventually we’ll get there. Until then, though, I am leaning HARD into all my favorite things (chocolate, gummy bears, bubble baths, and a good books) and painting Christmas ornaments to sell in…

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a few things that are saving me today

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Last night I was home alone with the kids, and so I did one of those awesome Mom Things and made them watch a movie I knew they wouldn’t love as much as I do: Chariots of Fire. I am clearly suffering from the Olympic fever. But truly, I love that movie- the story, the faith, the sacrifice, the dreams realized, the lessons learned, the running in slow motion on the beach with grand music…

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shalom: for these days when nothing is as it ought to be

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I’m starting to feel like the world is one giant swirling gust of wind. Swoosh… there are ants in my kitchen and I can’t seem to get rid of them. The bug guy says they live in the walls. SUPER! Swoosh… my left eyelid is starting to wrinkle at an unprecedented rate, like it’s in a race to look eighty-five before I hit fifty. It’s so ahead of its time. I think I may name…

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making sense of beauty with my daughter

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When I was pregnant with her, I wondered if it would be different. After three sons, I wasn’t sure what would it be like to raise a daughter.{Girls are different, you know.} I delight in my boys. I am smitten and enthralled by their plucky way of conquering the world. Boys who need their mama make the world go ’round with love, love, love.Raising a girl, though, will undo the knots life has tied in your soul.I…

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let’s be adventurous

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Yesterday we packed up some snacks and drove to the Museum of the Pacific War in Fredericksburg, Texas. We’ve been studying WW2, and wanted to put some skin on the stories. The museum didn’t disappoint. As we entered, a grey-haired man in a museum vest looked my kids and said, “I’m so glad you came today. This place is here for you.” Then he looked at me and Morgan and thanked us for bringing them…

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beautiful shame

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I see Your face as it rises over the land,Who can behold such a vision and not surely die? I stand amazed. I crumble slowly in the light of Your mercy,Fear flourishes within as pieces of me I deemed precious fall lifeless from my grip. The trumpet blasts- I fall to my knees;The darkness within me spins as a cyclone, a mighty wind within. My great need sucks the Word into my soul,Like spark and…

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homelessness and belonging and the ache for more

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In between church services yesterday, I strolled through the lobby in search of coffee. Sitting in their usual spot on the sofas near the bookcases was the group of homeless men who come every week. I waved, then walked over to say good morning. These kinds of conversations are always a little awkward for me. Despite being married to a pastor, and therefore frequently chatting with people I don’t know very well, I am terrible…

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how to be a missional family

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“Go into the world. Go everywhere and announce the Message of God’s good news to one and all. Whoever believes and is baptized is saved; whoever refuses to believe is damned.” -Jesus (Matthew 16:15-16 The Message) We had a busy weekend. Saturday morning we woke up and cleaned our house from top to bottom. It’s for sale and we didn’t know if it would need to be shown after we left for the day’s activities….

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our most pressing destiny

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I sat on the sofa today reading a children’s bible story to the Lady. Joseph. Dreamer. Favored one. Slave. Favored. Prisoner. Mighty savior. He wore cloaks that were used against him. First his brothers lied about his bloody cloak to cover up their mistreatment of him. Later Potipher’s wife used the cloak she ripped from him to falsely accuse him of attacking her. It’s nice to look good on the outside, to perform well, for…

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we are all a woman in need of a champion

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Once upon a time, in a land closer than the blood in her heart or the breath in her lungs, there was a woman who thought she wanted to be loved. She was a princess, she was a poor maiden, she was a popular girl, she was an outcast, she was less beautiful than she wanted to be, and she was heavenly glory encased in the softest silken skin anyone had ever seen. She was…

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