why i’m over building a platform

By | books, choosing, dreams, failure, grace, hope, trust, women, words | 37 Comments

I’ve been blogging for seven years now. Most of the people who were blogging when I started have either surpassed me in fame and platform numbers, or they are no longer blogging. I have heard so much over the years about platform, and it is all true: if you want to write a book, publishers want you to have thousands of followers somewhere in the interwebs. I have the majority of a book finished that…

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all my feelings re: sending my kids to public school

By | change, choosing, homeschooling, hope, lessons in life, momhood, Motherhood, problems | One Comment

For the last eight years, all of our kids have been homeschooled. It’s so weird. I didn’t even want to homeschool my kids when they were little. I used to pray and ask God to please, please, please give us a great public school. But then we moved and I heard some concerning things about the school my oldest was supposed to go to for kindergarten. Kindergarten seemed like an easy thing to teach a…

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my window prayer for belonging

By | article, faith, family, friendship, God, hope, prayer, shame, spiritual disciplines, vulnerability | One Comment

“This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn’t go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone…

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how to live a holy life

By | hope, lessons in life, Perfection, vulnerability | No Comments

“A priest is a priest no matter where she happens to be. Her job is to recognize the holy in things and hold them up to God. Her job is to speak in a way that helps other people recognize holiness of things, too.” -Barbara Brown Taylor, Leaving Church I wonder where everybody is today. Are you driving across state lines, heading to Grandma’s house or Cousin Jenny’s cabin for the holiday? Are you crouched…

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Glimpses of Glory From Our Trip to South Africa

By | faith, God, God's presence, hope, lessons in life, ministry, problems, Suffering | 4 Comments

Morgan and I went to a ministry conference in South Africa last week. I am still sleeping when I‘m supposed to be awake and awake when I’m supposed to be asleep, so forgive me if this post has a stream of consciousness that only a two year old would find acceptable. I am so tired that I have basically become a two year-old: I can’t nap even though I’m exhausted, all I want to eat…

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a map of Christmas

By | article, Christmas, hope, prayer | No Comments

Star light, star bright; First star, I see tonight; I wish I may, I wish I might; Have the wish, I wish tonight.  So many times as I grew up, I looked up at the first glimmer in the night sky and said that old poem. I wished for ponies, for dolls, for friends, for faster legs, for a better complexion, for cooler jeans, for more talent and more ability and less awkwardness. I wished for all kinds of…

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the importance of hospitality

By | article, God, gospel mama, home, hope, house | No Comments

Too much. Too much on the calendar, too much to do, too much to remember. Too many. Too many plates spinning, too many people needing, too many crises in the world. Not enough. Not enough time, not enough energy, not enough me. If that doesn’t sum up the predicament we are in these days, I don’t know what does. My “baby” has turned seven, and when she asked how we should celebrate, I suggested we…

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it’s friday love

By | article, hope, love | No Comments

“Jesus knew that the hour had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved His own who were in this world, He loved them to the end.” -John 13:1 It’s Friday, Love.  It’s Friday, right in the middle of July, when the nights are warm and fireflies transform backyards into wonderlands.  The hard week is done, and the sorrows and struggles we faced on Monday are either gone or…

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when sad stories make space for hope of redemption

By | article, hope, Suffering | No Comments

Today, there seem to be fires and smoke everywhere I turn. Yesterday brought a few sad stories my way. Today I carry in prayer the weight of life’s pain, and my mind rests in the hope of redemption. Because, in one way or another, haven’t we seen this all happen before? I grew up in Southern California, in east Orange County, where Santa Ana winds blow sparks into wildfires and mud slides pull houses down…

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advent: hearts filled by waiting

By | article, Christmas, hope, Joy | No Comments

Last Saturday, seven happy and slightly sleep-deprived children woke up at the crack o’ dawn ready to go outside to jump, shout, and generally whoop it up on the a trampoline in the backyard. Four weary parents shook their heads and delayed the fun until a later hour. “The neighbors are all still sleeping. You guys can go out in two hours,” we said. {Because, FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS, just shush for a…

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